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A break from Tour :)

WOW – where to begin?

First of all, if you are in Pittsburgh, you should come see us this Friday at Unblurred for Gaia Harmonic which will be held at Assemble! :) THE WHOLE CREW WILL BE THERE…then we head to NY for our final show of the tour at Harvest Festival. In case you were unaware I even left – check out the Owl Tribe Tour site. :)

I am indeed back in Burgh for a minute but it still feels like we are moving. The world is kinda cray and we are all feeling more motivated than ever to seek transformation. My lack of a steady internet connection on the road coupled with NON-stop action and enlightenment has left my blog and social media kinda dry while on tour but I can promise there was not a dull moment and I will start to post updates from it asap.  It was pure magic in every way!

There are so many new things cooking including several new team members that have just joined me, the Owl Tribe and Wumanity Clan, and my book is DONE AND BEING PRINTED!  You can preorder it on Amazon.  My dear friends Laura Petrilla and Matt Macri (Octeel) who collaborated on the project had a baby named Freya and if I began to tell you the synchronicity surrounding this birth, the tour and what is currently happening, you would not believe me! LOOK HOW CUTE THEY ARE!

I am also focused on my native Aztec collaborators from Mexico, Anawak, who will be here for another two weeks. So, we are translating songs from English to Spanish and visa versa for a new project and we are doing a show here in Pittsburgh on THIS Friday and then offering a week of healing.  Please join us at Gaia Harmonic to be a part of this! They are doing an Aztec Dance workshop!

The Owl Tribe will be there ALL MONTH doing Reiki, Crystal Activation, Massage, Meditation, Yoga and more!!  We are trying to take what we did on tour and bring it home!

Last but not least I AM going on tour in Mexico, with Ac Tah in December! Details coming soon.

LOVE….ONLY…NOW!!!

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Tour Update – 1

The quote given to this tour is true….it really is “a cross between the occupy movement, a spiritual pilgrimage and a burning man traveling festival”.  Who WUUUU!?

But here is what it feels like……..that I put myself purposely into a pressure cooker.  Sometimes the heat feels great. Other times I am near explosion.  I think this tour is LITERALLY an experiment in being the change we wish to see. This was our whole point of creating the Wumanity Clan..…not just in the sense that our work, music, dance, etc. is all about consciousness shifting, but because we are completely outside of our comfort zone on one hand and totally at one with the universe on the other. We gotta be it or hightail it back to our respective places of origin.

It seems obvious to me that this tour is happening, even if it means I develop extraordinary credit card debt cause our theory is wrong, or I collapse from exhaustion.  But, I think that is not happening.  I think we are going to create the abundance needed to get through it and garner a strength I never knew I had.  Soon we will launch a store if you are interested in supporting this crazy effort :) .

But will we be effective agents of change?  We are trying to test the world to see if the theory of reality creation is viable in shifting the planet.  Can we truly change this fucked up world with peace and love?  We think its only possible when we heal ourselves but do believe love is the only way.  I feel like we entered a 30-day boot camp for this very sort of healing.  Sleeping on the ground, eating as raw as possible (thanks to the amazing Mandi Babkes! – click her name for more info!), living in the moment, healing CONSTANTLY through the mirrors that we are for each other, etc.  Can we really complete a loosely planned pop up tour relying solely on our gifts of healing, dancing, singing and BEING to make it to Cali and back?

I have proven this theory to myself on a small scale but can I prove it inside an incredibly tightly packed van of 8 young lightworkers I brought together that have never met…who all by the way have COMPLETELY different and sometimes oppositional ways of delivering their light? I say yes, it’s happening, and I can’t turn back now!  And its an interesting triad of origins by the way, New Mexico, Mexico and Pittsburgh.

I have been facing fears that I have not been in touch with for years.  I am meeting my ego, and that of the 7 amazing people traveling with me head on.   Stuff I thought I let go of is resurfacing, but I can release it more quickly than I would have thought possible.  Being around 7 healers certainly helps!   We are also meeting our higher selves and becoming more familiar with our true purpose. This really is LIVING the dream.  And sometimes I have nightmares but I know the terror has purpose. My new hook written during a recent Reiki session seems to summarize – “It must come up, to come out.  In this I have little doubt. In every mess their is a blessing in disguise.  I heard that’s a word to the wise”.  And Owls are wise, this we know.

Through it all, I can say that this is pure magic no matter how you slice it.  I think we might be a reality show on the 5th dimension…like a Truman Show for some already super enlightened beings that are cracking up over the intense emotions, silliness, tears and laughter.  It has been wild so far and we are ONLY ON DAY 5.

Mara quoted the Alchemist and said, “This is your personal legend Kellee and when you are going for it, you will be tested.”  God knows the tests have been hard but I think we have gotten an A.  And so it continues and I will be sure to update you on progress.

Quick recap:

Group yoga every day is so rad!  Movement has an incredible potential to unify.

Everyone we have met has been amazing!

Evolvefest was amazing.  Our performance was like a dream.   The guy who books Harvest Festival came up to me asking if we could perform in NY in October.  He said that he cried and had a spiritual experience and that he NEVER does that and NEVER thought he would be coming up to be to ask me to play his event.   How could I say no!?

I was also led to a super cool guy named Michal who books a beach festival in North Caroline for charity that just happened to be when we are close by and just happened to have a open slot. How perfect to perform for a good cause, ON THE BEACH.  We are in of course.  Synchronicities are constant and I just have to open up to the magic to see them.

We are all buzzing about Albuquerque and the Wisdom of the Origin’s Conference in New Mexico as well and learning Transcendental Meditation thanks to a sponsorship from TMwomen.org.  We are so excited to honor the indigenous wisdom that has inspired all of our work.  OH, and we are at the Democratic National Convention right now!  We spent most of the day at the Huffington Post Oasis.

Who knew a Cannabis medicine woman, a metal-head documentarian, a fun-loving nurse in training, 2 Aztec healing dancers, a hula hooping massage therapist and 2 female rappers and singers would ever try to make history…..together.  Maybe we won’t be in any books but goddess knows this is goin’ down in my personal history as the most amazing month of my life…and its just beginning.

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Jasiri X – An interview

Life has been so full with the album, book and crazy tour we are doing so I haven’t had time to write myself so I thought it was time for another interview from someone that inspires me.  Jasiri X has intrigued me since moment one and taught me SOO much through his music.  I was so honored to do a song with him, and a video which you can check out at the bottom of the interview.  He is a changemaker and I am so excited to continue to see his music open eyes and create action.


Q: How long have you been making music, and what was the moment that you remember deciding that this was going to be your life?

I started making music in the mid 90s. I decided it was going to be my life in 2010 when I quit my job and decided to become a full time artist.

Q: You are an activist, what started this fire in you?

I was raised in a household that upheld activist live Dr. King and Malcolm X, so that’s what started it for me.

Q: What is something most people don’t know about you and would be surprised to learn?

At one point in my life I was a notorious weedhead. I think that would surprise people.

Q: Your music is a movement. I have personally learned so much and respect your work.  Do you consider yourself a teacher and a leader?  I feel you ARE, but how do you wish to be seen, and how do you see yourself?

I feel like a student more than a teacher, but I think I have a perspective that is different than what people are used to hearing. I’d rather be seen as a servent more than a leader.


Q: If you could only talk about one specific issue when you write, what would it be?

Love, it’s the deepest and most complex issue, in my opinion.

Q: What do you think hip hop music will be like in a year?  Do you see content of mainstream hip hop going back to saying something about the state of the world? I keep hearing Lupe Fiasco’s “Around My Way” on XM and it gets me super excited…but i dunno if its on FM?

I see Hip-Hop moving toward lyricsim and consciousness. I think we’re going to see more depth and meaning in the music because that’s what people are yearning for.

Q: Who are your biggest influences?

Bob Marley, Michael Jackson, Public Enemy, and Nas.

Q: You and producer Rel!g!on are both originally from Vacouver, how long have you been working with each other, how did that start?

We started working together in 2009/2010. He sent me a beat for a project he was working on and we kept going from there, now we have a whole album.

Q: What are your goals, professionally?

To be able to make relevant, good music and help move the culture to more positive expressions.

Q: You often work with/talk to youth, what sort of impact have they had on you?

They keep me grounded, and aware of new trends, plus sharp lyrically.

Q: What are some hip hop artists you would like to work with in the future?

Nas, Lupe, Kendrick Lamar, also Wiz and Mac.


Q: What is your prediction for the election.  I am not even sure I want to vote..I almost want that to be my vote….no vote.

I think Obama is gonna win big and I think it’s gonna cause a extreme push back from these right wing racists.

Q: If you were an oracle, what would your prediction be for the world in the next 5 years.  Can we change this shit?

We are changing it. We don’t see the real impact we’re making cause it doesn’t get covered in mainstream media, but 5 years from the now this world will look completely different.

What can we expect next from Jasiri X?

My album “Ascension” on Wandering Worx Entertainment will be released very soon.

What advice do you have for other artists who are trying to get out a message and make a difference with their music?

Be willing to take risks, push the envelope, and stay true to yourself.

Check out Jasiri on TwitterCheck out Jasiri on Facebook | Check out Jasiri on YouTube

Don’t forget to check out our collaboration, “Notice the End”!!

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CYNIK LETHAL UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL – INTERVIEW :)

Here is another interview from someone that inspires me.  I have always felt so blessed to work with people that are not only talented but true friends.  Cynik has been one of the most supportive people I have ever worked with and is a multi-talented being to be reckoned with on every dimension!  He produced some of my favorite songs I have done including Freakuency, Godette and The Fact is.  Here is more about this powerhouse in his own words.

Q: How did you get into music?

A: First off, thanks for asking. My biological father was and still is a
drummer, and my grandmother on my mother’s side was a church singer…
The music was in the blood, and my grandma had me singing before I
could talk, really… at about 4, my aunt on my stepdad’s side, who
was a singer in a rock band, had me on stage performing with her, and
since then I never seriously wanted to do anything with my life other
than be an entertainer. I was fortunate that my mother recognized I
was crazily passionate about it at a young age… she kept me in
musical programs throughout school and was a believer in doing what
you want with your life, so she was always very supportive.

Q: You are an emcee, producer and engineer…am I missing anything?

A: Well I wouldn’t really say I’m much of an engineer, hahaha, I still
have a lot to work on in that area… But besides rhyming, ((the rap
game is disgusting)), beatsmithing ((for almost 10 years now, love
every second of it)), and DJing ((for a few years, just rockin bars
and clubs and shit like it was a “day job”)) I also have experience as
a host of live and filmed events. I also do a ton of consultancy work,
and I was debating getting back into acting at some point down the
road.

Q: What genres of music do you produce and why?

A: I identify as a rap/hiphop producer because that’s my “main” genre,
but I like to produce as many different styles of music as I can get
into, because I feel like all the techniques you learn in producing
various genres will serve you when working on what you’d consider
“your style”. So thus far, I’ve had my hands in rap, hip hop, r&b,
theme music, pop music, rock/metal, jazz, dubstep and house. I made an
attempt at country one time on a bet, but I’m probably gonna leave
that one alone for a while, hahahah…


Q: What artists have you produced for?

A: I’ve heard Freeway, Raekwon, Ghostface Killa, and Tasha from Xscape on
my tracks, as well as Lil Wayne on one of my tracks that was
re-worked. At the time of this interview, though, all of that music is
unreleased, so it really doesn’t count yet in my eyes. As a hiphop
producer, I’ve focused mainly on the Pittsburgh music scene, while
sharpening my skills, and I’ve been fortunate enough to see artists
I’ve worked with from the ground up take music we’ve made and go
national and international with it, which I feel like is one of the
greatest achievements a producer can have. I’ve seen artists from
Pittsburgh such as Jasiri X ((“What If The Tea Party Was Black?)),
Kellee Maize ((Godette)), the Wu-Tang’s Pittsburgh affiliates the
Wulords ((Chapter 3)) and Big Lyfe ((Sky High)) take songs we’ve made
out into the world and make serious headway in their careers, which I
feel like is much more of a feat in today’s harsh musical climate than
merely getting a placement with an already-established national
artist. I still have a few more indie artists that I’m in the process
of working on some exciting projects with, so hopefully the music we
make will act like swords for them also… I’m also working with
electronic artists in the dubstep genre, such as Statesthetic and RSK, with whom I’ve
had a few releases over the last few months. In addition to the
artists, I’ve also done some theme music for a few commercials and an
audio book as well.

Q: What project/song did you love the most, which one are you most proud
of? I wonder if it is the same one. :) Don’t feel obligated to say
mine, lol.

Well, every project I do has a special place for me, because no two
that I’ve done are alike, and no two artists that I’ve worked with are
alike ((that’s how I keep it interesting and evolving))… BUT at the
moment, off the top, I’d have to say that this group that’s the
Pittsburgh Wu-Tang affiliates, the Wulords, had one of the most
amazingly in-depth projects I’ve had the pleasure of working on to
date. These young men are crazy as hell. We have this jam with metal
guitars on the project they just released in April ((“Johnny Blaze”,
off of Chapter 3: Strategic Attack)), that just gives me goose bumps
every time it hits. I find myself walking around absent-mindedly
spitting the lyrics to that jam… The way the whole creation of that
song went was just like magic. They said “we want some hard guitars,
we wanna get vicious”, and I said “cool, let’s kill some people”. I
got to work for like three days ((I don’t play the guitar, so I had to
make the guitar sounds myself, and make it convincing)) and finally
came up with how I wanted it to go, then when they came thru the spot
to hear it, I saw big smiles, they didn’t even want anything changed!
The next day they just hit the studio without a word, and in one
session murdered the song, which turned out to be one of my favorite
jams of 2012 so far! I ended up producing most of their Chapter 3
disc, and due to the heavy lyrical content, creatively aggressive
beats, and the group itself ((11 yr old, 14 yr old, and 18 yr old
brothers, amazing!)), as well as the collabs we had on there, it just
became one of my favorite projects to have worked on thus far, in
general.

Q: How would you describe your own sound and how it sets you apart from
other producers and emcees?

A: I would describe my sound as aggressive and constantly evolving. I’ve
heard people say that they can always tell when I’ve produced a track,
no matter the genre, because it will always have musically violent
undertones, attitude, and very full drums. Most of the music I do
comes from a dark place, so whether it sounds like a sexy pop track, a
jazz hybrid, electronic dance, or whatever, I’ll still find a way to
throw something in there that makes you feel where I’m coming from…
Most of the artists I have worked with and like to work with have dark
pasts and have overcome things in their lives that would destroy most
“normal” people, and I feel like that’s one of the things that always
comes through in my sound, which is what most artists I’m working with
gravitate towards for these particular projects of theirs I get to be
involved in.


Q: What producers do you admire? what emcees to you admire?

Well I’m always gonna say Timbaland, Dr. Dre, Kanye West, Just Blaze,
Pharrell, RZA, DJ Premier, Pete Rock, Kid Capri, and Quincy Jones
right off the top, because those are the ones I have always studied.
These guys are the guys I’m striving to be able to stand next to some
day. As far as rappers go, I was always into Luda, Busta, Jay, Ye,
Twista, KRS-One, Pac, Biggie, Nas, Naughty By Nature, and Run DMC…
Emcee’s who had FLOW, as well as something to talk about. One of the
things that’s strange about me, though, is that I actually listen to
as little rap music as possible these days. I listen to a lot of
American dubstep, aka “brostep”, so producers like Datsik, Skrillex,
Bare, and a whole lot of underground guys are what I’m into at the
moment.


Q: How did you start making beats? when?

As a little kid I was always fascinated by the music behind the
artists I was listening to and how it was made ((it was like magic to
me)). I was always drumming on shit, beat-boxing, and recording it
onto blank tapes. I learned and studied as an artist for the first
part of my life (singing and rapping), then I started learning how to
make beats using drum machines and keyboards at 16 while working for
this strange program downtown during the summer…. I started learning
sequencing and production incorporating computers at 18 after high
school… but never got good enough to start selling tracks til I was
about 20 and working at a studio in my hood.

Q: Explain your beat-making process?

I can’t really say I have one process that I go about it…. I guess I
would say that it depends on how much of the idea is already
formulated before I even touch the keys. For example, if an artist has
an idea for a song, we’ll get into the studio and start from that, and
the track ends up customized to the song they heard in their head or a
hybrid of their idea and where else we thought we could take it. If an
artist just says “I like your sound, I want what you do”, then I’ll
start like 3 different tracks according to what that artist has
already done, trying to imagine where they could go next that would
be comfortable yet outside of the box for them ((if they want that))
and work on the ideas simultaneously until one of them sounds like
where I’m trying to go, or I hear elements in each of them that I can
combine into one solid track for that artist… A lot of times, when
I’m not making anything specifically for someone, I’ll just hear
something in my head and have to run to the keyboard to get it out
before I lose the idea. The easiest ones are the ones where I hear the
melody in my head first.

Q: Is it easier to do your beat and give it to the artist or produce
around what someone has already written?

Well I find it’s easiest when an artist has a concept for a song, not
necessarily the whole song already written out, but an idea of where
the song should end up. It gives both the artist and the producer room
to work and find a middle ground. I like to work with people, and I
feel like the less “guessing” a producer has to do, the more he ((or
she)) can focus on what it is the artist wants and end up with a
better project in the end. In some cases, though, ((when working on
rap music mostly)) I definitely don’t mind if the artist has the song
already written out and I just have to lay sick drums then fill
everything in while we blaze. In the electronic genre, I encourage
artists to give me a capellas, even, which I can then manipulate to
form some whole other thing!

Q: Explain your writing process and why you write what you do?

Well my writing process as an artist is kind of funny, because I feel
like the music pretty much tells me what to say and how to say it, so
I’m militant about the music I rock to, because every little nuance
affects what I write. I’ve tried to steer away from the artist thing
the last few years and focus more on the production end, because I
can’t seem to stop myself from writing really cynical dark material
that is always socio-political based and aggressive-sounding, which, in
today’s rap climate run by corporate fuckers, is deemed unprofitable.
I think that style of writing comes from my love of heavy metal music,
hahaha, but I figure once I find the proper medium as an artist where
that’s appropriate, I’ll be fine, if that’s the road I feel like
traveling again. I’ve found that some of the feelings I like to
express, when verbalized as an artist, can come across as frightening
to some, whereas I can put the same feelings into music as a producer
and elicit a much more positive response and a clearer understanding
from my audience, without ever saying a word. Furthermore, being a
producer allows me to find artists who would be putting out the types
of messages I’d like to, and strengthen their movements by lending my
energy to what they have going on.

Q: What kind of advice would you give aspiring producers or emcees?

The number one thing I can and will always probably say to anyone
working in this industry is this:

“Strive for innovation, not imitation!”

Q: If you aren’t making music, what do you enjoy?

If I’m not working on music I’m into movies, shows/events/parties,
video games, and some other stuff I won’t talk about on here, hahaha

Q: What inspires you?

God, really. I feel like this is what I’m put here to do, and I feel
completely happy with life as long as this is what I’m doing and I’m
continuing to move forward. Any obstacle in life I’ve ever
encountered, I felt like I had to overcome only to do what I’m doing.
Music is like a martial art to me, I’ll only continue to evolve, grow
and achieve greater levels of skill until I’m bad-ass enough that they
have to stick me on the top of a mountain like an old monk from a kung
fu movie, hahahah. I’ve recognized that my music is motivated and
fueled by a very dark place, and that it’s what I use to get me
through. What inspires me the most is the hope that one day I’ll be
able to stand in front of millions of people and testify that God took
this man who was born with nothing and made him a king!

Q: Do you think it’s important to have a recognizable sound or to be able
to produce a wide variety of sounds?

I’ve found that when a producer tries to stick to just one sound,
(like they make a hit and get on, then tons of other artists start
hitting him for something that just sounds like that one song they
made), there exists the possibility of stagnation. The main guy that
trained me as I was coming up, (Caz Lamar, is his name) taught me that
the more diverse you are, the stronger and more valuable you are as
producer, and you will survive longer.

Q: What is next for you? what are you looking forward to?

What’s next for me as far as in the upcoming months: a whoooooole lot
of electronic dance music production ((i.e. dubstep, moombahton, and
tech house)). There’s an audio book I produced that we’re wrapping up,
called “From A Kushite To A Thug: How Did I Get Here” by author Steve
Johnson, that should be coming out soon. New Wulords records I’ve
produced are coming. New Jasiri X is coming. New Kellee Maize tracks
are coming. I’ve got collaborations with a rock band called Doomsday
Initiative coming, and I’m producing a jazz-hybrid project for trumpet
player Ian Gordon! I’m hoping some of the national placements in the
rap genre I’ve done start to emerge this year, but even if they don’t,
I have tons of other interesting opportunities on the horizon I’m
looking forward to… This year should mark my return to the
microphone in some capacity as well, so I’m pretty excited about some
of the material shaping up under the Cynik Lethal project…


Q: When will your next emcee project be out?

Speaking of which, I’m pretty sure the first single from the new Cynik
Lethal project should be out in the fall of ’12, along with the video I’m executive producing. The project is gonna be
electronic-based for the most part, as that’s the genre whose
techniques I’ve been studying the most, over the past year or so. I kind of
feel pretty free as an artist, these days, to experiment, because I’m
working and gaining steadily as a producer… I’m not really under any
pressure to repeat anything I’ve done in the past, so I’m looking
forward to being able to reach a new audience with a new sound, some
hard-ass music, and hopefully break a lot of necks in the process!

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Full Moon Feelings

Yesterday my Aunt Gloria told me it was the full moon. Unless you know me, and my aunt, you will not understand the irony of this. I am the one who is usually obsessed with the stars and such things. She always thought I was “weird”. But, now-a-days she is listening to Wayne Dyer, wearing gemstone jewelry I bought her for various ailments and reminding me of the very things I told her, that she says have helped her “be more positive” in her life.  She is such a cool woman and I am so blessed to have her!

It seems we never stop learning, starting over, learning again, being reminded, forgetting, etc. It is an endless cycle and I have been in such a strange place in my cycle. I am not surprised it is a full moon! I have had so much going on, yet feel like I am not doing enough, and at the same time, my very much “deadline oriented” self is very frustrated at things “taking longer” than I think they should. (I kinda felt like Zion in this pic to the right here and there, exhausted and bummed)  But, circumstance has just stepped in and it seems that I had no reason to stress on deadlines for my book or album. They will happen exactly when they should. How many times do I have to be reminded of this! Things happen, when they are supposed to happen. But, having structure is always very important for me and I would argue for anyone. I just can’t have so much attachment to things going as I expect.

End of day, I am a happy girl. I feel so blessed and so driven to share all the amazing things that have altered my life for the better. I am still so overwhelmed by the world, and all the issues that seem only to get more complex and upsetting. But it seems there is change everyday. This change either brings light to or resolves, and both elements are so necessary to the shift we are all involved in right now.  I am half way through this movie called 2012: time for a Change, by Daniel Pinchbeck.  I got the opportunity to meet him last month, which makes watching more fun. But, wow, what an important movie. I cried many many times (normal for me whenever I hear/watch/discuss social, environmental and spiritual issues).  But, it is inspiring and I can tell the end is going to make me feel empowered.  Watching the rest tonight.

I also read my astrologers newsletter today. (He also wrote an amazing book I am reading right now called The Exquisite Zodiac).  The newsletter talked about how we are back in the time of the 60′s, planetarily speaking, because Pluto and Uranus are traveling through Virgo as they did in that decade. We will again face the issues we faced then to see, “how we did”.   It felt synchronistic given the movie I just mentioned also talks about how the 60′s started the evolution of consciousness.  Now is the time for a majority to show that we have in fact done what is needed to combat rasicm, inequality, discrimination, poverty, etc. And, if we haven’t done what is needed, perhaps now with an ability to communicate and learn like never before, we can finally step up to the plate.

But, as I was reminded again today, it starts with the “Man in the Mirror” as one of my most important influences taught me. Step up and make the change for the betterment of everyone.  Don’t rely on something outside of you to shift yourself and the planet.

Miss you Michael.

I hope you will read the Newsletter by Rick DiClemente – it rocks. Click here.

And, watch the movie, it is one Netflix!

Love you,

Kellee

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Wow – it has been way to long…wanna know why?

Well, I don’t think excuses are all that awesome but it really has a been a while and I made a promise to everyone that I would post regularly. In my integrity article, I talk more about this. And, here we are again with a broken word. But, I will honor it by not pretending it didn’t happen. :)  I did have a broken blog for about a week but, that is NO EXCUSE ;)

So, I didn’t post often like I said I would and if that bothered anyone lmk.  Also, my new promise is to write as often as I can.  Slowly, as I started to apply the Landmark integrity practice, I started to be more aware with your word and give it out more carefully…this was a good reminder for me.   And, although I want to write often, I think I may chill for a bit till I get a few other larger projects going.  I will write as often as I am able.

But, what have I been up to?  Well, I went to Mexico…above you can see my second day there while we were still at the beach.  It was amazing. I performed and did ceremony and much more. I plan to write a long post about it in the future.

<–I did a Venus Transit Ceremony at the Mesa in Pittsburgh with The Caney Indigenous Spiritual Circle.

I was a maid of honor in my girls wedding.  It was an unbelievable experience.  It was a lot of work but I loved every minute of it.  The bachelorette was epic and it was so great to be able to do this for my soul sister, Roxanne, who is now a Mrs!  And her hubby is like a brother.  So happy for them!

I have been getting much farther along with my album and book.  More updates about that soon!!!

My brother and sister (who I just met last year, I am adopted), visited me for the first time ever!  I performed at the inner divinity costume party, which was part of the Evolver Convergence, while they were here. It was so rad!  I got to meet Daniel Pinchbeck who said he loved my show which meant a lot! You should def check out Evolver and Reality Sandwich! I will write more about this and my bro and sis when I can.

I got to surprise Mamma Maize on her birthday and spend the weekend camping. It was ultra fun! :)  Jamin finally got in the water, it was sooo hilarious.

AND, my friend and director Alex DiMarco moved to LA and so we decided to shoot a TON of videos before he left, which has kept me rather busy.   We even shot one for a unreleased song that will be on the new album!  I also got to finally work with Nicholas Buchheit and his amazing crew on a video for Trapped.  Below are a few highlight pics from video shoots. :)

MUCH LOVE ALWAYS! MORE SOON!

Kellee

FOR “TRAPPED” – Nicholas totally outdid himself with these sets.  It was unREAL!

MORE TRAPPED Below…

Under that is AT CATCH ME W/ JAMIN

At Verve Wellness shooting for a NEW SONG w/ Alex!

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WuLords – Interviews with ppl that inspire me. :)

A while back my friend and producer Cynik Lethal schooled me on a new group in Pittsburgh that has been grinding for a while.  I was surprised to hear they had been at it for years, given they are all quite young.  But, young does not mean there is a lack of intelligence or work ethic!  The WuLords are not only wise, but talented and I always find it so inspiring to see young people serious about making art or music.  In addition, they are obviously, in name and in real life, connected to Wu-tang Clan.  I have loved the Wu since I was their age and have memories sitting with my friends trying to explain what I thought their lyrics meant.  I always wanted to create an All female Clan…maybe someday.  I learned so much from Wu-tang and I think I will learn more from the young WuLords. So, I wanted to throw an interview with them in the mix with all the amazing people that inspire me. It seems these youngin’s came out the womb spitting lyrics and are making some serious noise! Check um out. :)

Q: Who are the WuLords?

Z1: WuLords is the hip hop movement that stands for Witty Unpredictable Lyrical Obedience Respect Da Swords. We’re all about knowledge over nonsense and understanding the importance of the Art of lyrics in Hip Hop. Taking Hip Hop to the next level.

D.I.G.I.: We’re putting the lyrical content back into lyrical content.

Q: What are the released albums called?

Lord Elite: We’re doing that by using Sun Tzu’s Art of War and implementing his teachings into our music. His 13 chapters are going to become our 13 albums. Right now we have 3 albums out that are in the series.

Z1: Chapter 1: Calculations Initial Estimations, that right there is all about the power of planning and getting your game plan right. Nothing should go down until you figured out exactly what your doing. Chapter 2: The Challenge: Waging War, is about keeping things “Short and Sweet”. No nation has benefited off of prolonged war. And “Chapter 3: Strategic Attack”, learning the art of strategic movements. Taking what you want without damaging the product. You can get the albums on cdbaby.com look up “WuLords” and you’ll get all 3 albums right there.

Q: How did you guys come up with the name?

Well, Wu came from the Wu Nation that Sun Tzu led into the war against the great nation of Chu. Wu was very small compared to the nation of Chu. And we believe we’re in that same position because we’re from Pittsburgh and we want the world to tune in to our sound. Pittsburgh is microscopic compared to the world and is not really fully on the map yet when it comes to Hip Hop. Plus, WuLords music is very different from everything else so the masses aren’t used to the type of joints we put out.

Q: What makes WuLords music different from everyone else?

D.I.G.I.: No one is putting out all these albums in one year. No one seems to be bringing the concepts like the Art of War in their music like we do. We want our listeners to think, decipher and crack our music like a code.

Z1: We have no samples in our instrumentals. Now-a-days you hear a lot of instrumentals that have samples in them. Our beats are created from scratch. We have great producers like Cynik Lethal, B-Sty D and Julian Demetrius Antonio Ash that understand what we’re trying to do.

Lord Elite: We want our beats unpredictable.

Q: What made you guys combine music with Sun Tzu’s Art of War?

D.I.G.I.: Because Sun Tzu was about using your mind and being strategic to win battles. And we’re about using our mind. Knowledge over Nonsense.

Lord Elite: The Art of War is even used today in modern warfare and everyday life. And we feel that we are in a war between us and the world, bringing our sound to the people, and going against the grain.

Q: So the connection between WuLords and Wu Tang…how did that happen?

Lord Elite: We’ve always admired the Wu Tang Clan from the brotherhood to the unity within the group to the lyrical skills. We’ve always had the plan for this WuLords project but out of respect, we wanted to meet the Wu Tang before we released any of the chapters. At New Years Eve of 2010, we got the opportunity to meet them face to face in Pittsburgh because they were doing a show kicking off the year for us. (Kellee note – The Wu NYE show was brought to Pgh by my company Nakturnal and Opus One Productions! :)

D.I.G.I.: When I heard that we were meeting Wu Tang I was like “Yo…this is really about to happen. We about to meet this legendary group!” It felt awesome. It was epic.
Lord Elite: Yeah I didn’t know how it was going to play out. It turned out to be crazy. Raekwon was the first member to reach out. He took us on the tour bus and he took our CD and popped it in the player.

Lord Elite: It felt like the work we’ve done for the past 4-5 years paid off. It was being recognized by, like you said, a hip hop legend.

Q: How did that feel, to have a hip hop legend like Raekwon listen to your music?

D.I.G.I.: (smiles) Speechless

Z1: I remember when Raekwon popped in Lord Elite’s cd and played his “365” joint. The first thing that Lord Elite said was “Who bangin’ Hip Hop like Wu Tang, from the genius GZA to the RZA,” and GZA was sitting right next to me and he started to smile and was like “Hmm”.

Lord Elite: What about when Ghost heard Black Superman.

Z1: Yeah that was insane. He woke from his sleep in the back. We actually left the tour bus and Ghostface brought us back on. We saw him and he was like “Who wanna meet the kid?” We were like “Oh!” That was just a blessed moment. I mean we grew up listening to these guys.

Lord Elite: After they listened to our music we broke down our movement and what we were trying to do. And they were for it. They gave us the green light and we’ve been banging ever since.

Z1: Yeah we did shows with Ghost, Rae and Capp. In ATL, on their Rock the Bells tour, there were only three acts on the card, WuLords, Mobb Deep, and Rae/Ghost.
Lord Elite: That was crazy! For the fact that, we were on the stage rocking with the greats!

Q: So we wanna go to the WuLords performance. We have the music, now what should we expect when we see it live?

D.I.G.I.: Energy! It’s go hard or go home. Z1: If you come to our show correct with the right state of mind, you should leave leaking with sweat.

Q: You guys have a lot of knowledge at such a young age. What is your advice for the young people out there coming up in the world?

Lord Elite: Yeah never be afraid to pursue your dreams. Anything is possible. Stay focused. Don’t get caught up in everything else that is going on.

Z1: Go against the grain. Don’t be afraid to be different. It’s not easy but it’s worth it. Hard work pays off.

D.I.G.I.: No matter the age, size, race if you put your mind to it and work hard everyday.  It’s nothing but energy and skill.You can make it!

Q: Are you guys still in school and how does that work in with your music?

Z1: We’re cyber schooled. Get all done in the morning everything else is music.

Q: So for these future albums of the Art of War, what should people expect from them WuLords?

D.I.G.I.: Expect the unexpected.

Lord Elite: Follow us on Twitter @WuLords! Check out our website www.wulords.com. Check out our video on YouTube laydash and slgentertainment! Download all of our chapters on cdbaby.com/Artist/WuLords

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Decisions – A time of struggle to arrive at my trip to Mexico

It has been a minute. I don’t know why I found it hard to write in the blog for the last month. I have had some pretty extreme ups and downs. I wouldn’t say I have been depressed or anxious, although at times I might have said that…but it has been more confusing. I have fully immersed myself in my new album and I think the writing and re-writing process tends to bring up so many different things for me. I remember hearing in one of my fav movies, Kymatica, that art was used by the indigenous as a means to “let out” their shadow side or energy. Perhaps I have been tapping into this. :) But, once again I was shown that what I think about expands…when you focus on the negative, you get more of it. So thankfully I can catch myself really quick now and get back to the good vibes. :)  I also am an empath and know that the energy in the world is SUPER cray cray so I know I am soaking up some of this.

I have been going through a lot of transitions also, although, transition is constant! But, I feel more balanced now and just decided that I can put recording on hold for a minute and commit to going to Mexico for a week on May 15. I was hesitant to make a commitment, which is not like me and I was fearful about traveling alone, which is also note like me.   No one in my “tribe” was able to make it work with their schedules and so I was going back and forth and back and forth trying to decide where I should be for May 19 and 20. The planetary alignment that is happening is really important to the shift that the Mayan Calendar scholars suggest. So, even though I was being called to be in 10 places at once, it seemed that I just had to be in Mexico with my Mayan teacher and friend, Ac Tah. And then, suddenly at the last minute, my girl Mara was able to come along! I love experiencing things like this with friends.  And, I will get to perform also!

I highly suggest reading Actah’s Newsletter about this planetary event HERE. I ask that you all take part in holding space for this important opportunity for anchoring peace.  Ac Tah’s Mayan ancestors have told him this date is more important than Dec 21 2012! Do it in your own way, but just do it. I rarely feel this strongly about anything to say – DO it. :) But, as Ani Difranco says, “I feel sometimes that my life is at stake, cause your only as loud as the noises you make” – SO HEAR ME NOW SAYING – PLEASE JOIN ME IN CREATING A PEACEFUL VIBRATION FOR YOU, ALL THAT YOU LOVE AND ALL THAT IS…WHICH IS ALL YOU!

PEACE in your valley. :)

LOVE

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DA BUTTON PUSHA – Interviews w/ people who inspire me

I have always wanted a way to more formally thank and pay respects to the amazing people in my life who have inspired me, pushed me, collaborated with and supported me. So, I decided to start doing interviews of these powerhouses not only to give my undying gratitude, but hopefully to get the word out about the great things they do so that you might support them too.

I sent out emails and such with questions and plan to continue to contact my people over the next year. I was not at all surprised when Da Button Pusha aka Tha Prezident was the first to respond.  It feels like I grew up with her, although we have probably only known each other for 10 years. We started performing, planning events, and trying to put a feminine spark in the hip hop game in the burgh right around the same time.   We have booked each other on shows many times.  One event she did in particular I always appreciated so much is her Hip Hop Buffet.  She did an all-female addition a few times that connected me with some amazing female artists in Pittsburgh.  She has an incredible drive to to support Pgh artists and now has JPBTV.com which further demonstrates her dedication to artists.   She is not only a talented emcee, host and event planner but she is one of those people that figures out how to do almost anything that is needed and has become an all-around producer, editor and director of video and music. And now she is going to school for business and info tech….grinding!!!!

Not only did Buttons reply first, but she produced a video in less than 24hrs to answer all of my questions instead of writing back……yeah, she is the gogetter’s gogetter…doesn’t waste anytime, and always does things to the max.  So dope!

So here it is, and thank you buttons for being you.  I love you always!
PEACE

Here is another video where Da Button Pusha jumps in an interview with Front Row Monthly to give me love.

Her support has kept me going, more than once.

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Transitions – New baby/New house

Hola! I am totally “out of integrity” as they say in Landmark as I did not honor my word and post 3x’s per week in the last two weeks. If I had maybe made a quick post saying so, they I would be alright but, I didn’t even take the time to do that. So, forgive me and holla if there is any impact I need to deal with. :) (Gosh I love landmark shit for keeping me accountable and able to release guilt!)

I assume there isn’t an impact and perhaps you wanna know why the sudden drop off from most social media and my blog. Wellllllll – BIG CHANGES! So, for the last maybe 12 years I have lived with many different people. Generally I have had at least 3 roommates and in some cases up to 6, like recently. I just love living communally with lots of people. Two of my roomies and my girl Paige are pictured to the left. Sometimes we had great brunches! I miss my lil bro Rod and Brooke (and brooke’s cooking!). And I miss my girl Nicole – to the right at her last bday party. They have all supported my music and life in SO many ways. Just love them….But, they are not far and now we have to plan dates!

Sharing space, food, time, etc. has always been a joy for me, more than it has been a struggle. But, everyone in my house was getting a bit antsy.   So, one roommate declared she wanted to move out and another followed so we all decided to move out at the same time, with no hard feelings at all and a bit of sadness. (My lil bro rod pictured again with me up to right).  However, I own this house with my boyfriend and Nicole and given we could save a lot of money, my man and I decided to give it a go and live together, finally! This house is rather enormous for 2 people but, we are both entrepreneurs so we made an extra office/dance studio, so that the studio can really JUST be music making and then we have an extra bedroom, which is great given we ALWAYS have people in from out of town or someone crashing for a few days.

So, my cat Zion was loosing his new little sister Meow and I felt kinda bad. My boy and I share a favorite dog, the Samoyed, so we discussed trying to get one. But, then we decided on another cat. As the move approached, he told me he started looking into Samoyed breeders anyway and only found one dog that was almost 6mnths old. We wanted a new puppy. So, I got excited and said I would look. I soon found no one had puppies but the same breeder with the 5 or 6mnth old was calling me. I thought it was kinda synchronistic given we both found the same dog and it was the ONLY one! I saw a picture and he still seemed young. I talked to the breeder who lives in Cleveland and he “just so happened” to be coming to a dog show in Pgh and also told me the whole story about why he wasn’t adopted. The mother died just before birth and some of the buyers got scared. So, not only would we get a good price, but the pup and I shared a loss of mother early on. It seemed like fate. My boyfriend and I decided that if we saw him, we would know. He jumped out of the van at the dog show and the rest is history. We are in love with our little man. He is a handful but very chill at the same time and so very worth it! His name is Jamin (it is spanish as my Colombian/Afghani boyfriend wanted to keep the namesake of Samoyeds he knew when he was young/with an accent on the i – sounds like “Jameen”….he is either Jamin Tres Maize or Jamin Quatro Maize…we aren’t certain how many Jamin’s my BF actually knew when he was young, lol).

So I lost some amazing roommates that I love but, with the dog and cat and boyfriend, the house still feels full. In our first weekend, we had tons of family come to meet for the first time! I let his neice and nephew record some songs….tooooo cute!

After we get a little more settled, I will be back to blogging, promise!

SPRING ALWAYS BRINGS ABOUT NEW GROWTH.  THIS HAS ALL GIVEN ME MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT!

HERE IS TO TRANSFORMATIVE CHANGES!

MUCH LOVE ALWAYS!

Kellee

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Google Female Rapper – Lyric Explanation

Hi All,

My latest video, we titled “google female rapper” is basically just one incredibly long verse, with probably over 100 bars, although I never counted.  We called it this because I do come up first when you google that, thanks to a ton of bloggers and such writing about me, using the words female rapper.

So, even though the words are all on the vid, I have been asked to explain more about them.   I guess you could say the song is an overarching statement about who I am and what I care about. The video was done in one take while I took off clothes, symbolizing the tranformations I have been through to a more calm person, or rather yogi. :)  There are about 24 bars in this that I pulled from my song Notice the End and from Start None – for those of you who may have heard something before. They were some of my favorites and I wanted to recontextualize them in this. :)  I put the lyrics in red and my notes in black and capital letters.  It is sometimes hard to do this as I often just feel like a channel and don’t really think as I write and often realize what was happening after the fact.  But, here goes nothing. :)

we say we think know but
but we got no idea
its called reality – believe it’s not clear
its all about perception, not erection or water retention, or an election we’re all makers
its our invention
(FOR A LONG TIME, I DID NOT REALIZE THAT MY PERCEPTION COLORED THE WAY I SAW THE WORLD…I THOUGHT THINGS WERE THE WAY THEY WERE FOR A REASON  AND I HAD NO CONTROL, WHICH ON SOME LEVEL I STILL SEE AS SORTA TRUE BUT, BASICALLY I STARTED REALIZING THAT, AS WAYNE DYER SAYS, “IF YOU CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THINGS, THE THINGS I LOOK AT CHANGE” – SOME CALL IT POSITIVE THINKING, SOME CALL IT LAW OF ATTRACTION, FOR SOME IT IS PART OF A RELIGIOUS PRACTICE TO CREATE REALITY, SOME HAVE LEARNED IT FROM INDIGENOUS WAYS….WHATEVER IT IS, I HAVE FOUND IN MY OWN WORLD, IT SEEMS TO BE TRUE ALMOST EVERY TIME I TEST IT. AND AS SOON AS I HEARD OF THESE THEORIES, MY LOGICAL SIDE WENT TO WORK TESTING.  IT IS MY GUESS THAT MANY PEOPLE FEEL HELPLESS ABOUT THINGS LIKE I DID, AND SO I BRING UP THESE THINGS MANY TIMES IN MY SONGS BECAUSE IT TRANSFORMED ME FROM A SUPER NEUROTIC AND SOMEWHAT WHINY FEARFUL AND UNTRUSTING PERSON TO A MUCH MORE CALM, PROACTIVE, AND TRUSTING CREATOR THAT BELIEVES STRONGLY TO PRACTICE GHANDI’S THEORY THAT “YOU MUST BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE” IN ORDER TO CREATE CHANGE OUT IN THE WORLD – THAT WAS ALL I EVER REALLY WANTED…TO SEE JUSTICE FOR ALL PEOPLE ON THE PLANET…BUT, THE MAN IN THE MIRROR IS THE KEY.  NOW, MANY THINGS HAVE AIDED IN MY TRANSFORMATION AND I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO BUT, THIS IS AN IMPORTANT PART OF IT. SPECIFICALLY LYRICS THAT PEOPLE QUESTIONS (ERECTION/WATER RETENTION/ELECTION, I THINK OUR OBSESSION WITH WITH FOOD, SEX AND POLITICS IS REALLY DISTRACTING US FROM THE POWER WE HAVE TO ACTUALLY CHANGE THE WORLD)

and in my rhythm i get um, it seems they were never missin
u think the boys i been kissin but i worked hard for this livin
and see i got my own business, daddy died and i got driven

(THIS WAS JUST A LIL’ DIGRESSION RELATED TO THINGS THAT I WOULD HEAR FROM OTHER PPL THAT FORCED ME TO RECREATE MY OWN SELF IMAGE AS I WAS LETTING OTHERS CLOUD MY VIEW OF MYSELF.  I WAS WAY TOO SENSATIVE – A FEW PPL OVER THE YEARS HAVE SUGGESTED I WAS A “SLUT/WHORE” TO GET WHERE I AM, AND THAT JUST IS NOT TRUE…I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING SEXUAL TO GET ANYWHERE – SO I ALLOWED MY OVER-SENSITIVE EGO TO GET A LIL PLAY IN THESE LINES, LOL. AND I MENTION MY DAD CAUSE AFTER HIS DEATH I WOULD SAY THAT EVERYTHING THAT IS DISCUSSED IN THIS SONG BECAME THE CENTRAL FOCUS OF MY LIFE, INCLUDING MY BUSINESS)

But this ism was given and it is written in vision
inside of alien prisons because i made my decision
before this body was given, knowin’ that i would be spitting
white girl with ancestor wisdom
reppin for all of my women

(THIS IS FROM NOTICE THE END AND I ALWAYS FELT CONNECTED TO THESE LINES.  BASICALLY, I THINK THAT REINCARNATION OR SOMETHING OF THAT NATURE AKA ENERGY NEVER DIES – FEELS LIKE TRUTH TO ME.  I HAVE FELT CONNECTED TO THE IDEA OF ALIENS FOR A LONG TIME AND HAVE HAD SOME EXPERIENCES WHICH I WRITE ABOUT – HERE.  THEY MAKE ME FEEL AS THOUGH THAT IS DIRECTLY CONNECTED TO PAST LIVES. THAT WE ARE ALL STAR CHILDREN – WITH NO REAL BEGINNING OR END – AND I HAVE ALWAYS HAD THE SENSE THAT I WAS A WITCH AT ONE TIME, BURNED, IMPRISONED SOMETHING OF THAT NATURE – WHICH IS WHAT I AM REFERRING TO AS WELL. I ALWAYS HAD UNNATURAL FEAR OF FIRE AS A CHILD AND OBVI IF YOU KNOW WHAT I AM INTO NOW IT DOES NOT SEEM SO STRANGE AS I HONOR EARTH TRADITIONS. I DON’T CLAIM TO BE PAGAN, OR A WITCH IN A REAL SENSE BUT I BELIEVE IN MUCH OF WHAT THESE LABELS STAND FOR, BUT NO DIFFERENT THAT I BELIEVE IN THE TENANTS OF CHRIST, BUDDHA, MUHAMMAD, ETC – I AM JUST NOT INTO DOCTRINE/ORGANIZED RELIGION AND THE JUDGEMENT OF OTHERS THAT IS ASSOCIATED – HOWEVER I RESPECT AND APPRECIATE IT WHEN SUCH PRACTICES TREAT ALL PEOPLE EQUALLY WITHIN SAID RELIGION AND DO NOT FEEL THIERS IS THE ONLY WAY.  I TRULY THINK EVERYTHING IS GOD/GODDESS)
Piscean swimmin in um see, likin my venom, G
(VENUS, IN MY BIRTH CHART, IS IN PISCES AND RECENTLY I HAVE FELT VERY CONNECTED TO THE PISCEAN ENERGY WITHIN ME OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.   AND THE VENOM LINE, I HAVE A CONNECTION TO SNAKES….LONG ASS STORY BUT I HAVE AN OUROBOROS TATTED ON MY ARM TO SYMBOLIZE THIS AND I ALSO RECENTLY HAD A SUPER CRAZY EXPERIENCE WHERE I DID A SHAMANIC JOURNEY- MET A SNAKE IN A VISION, WALKED OUTSIDE AND SAW A REAL LIVE SNAKE (SYNCRONICITY!!!!) AND ASKED TO HOLD IT!!!! I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT CAME OVER ME….MY DAD HAD PASSED ON A SUPER INTENSE FEAR OF SNAKES AND SUDDENLY I AM ASKING TO HOLD ONE! WTF – BUT I DID HOLD IT FOR OVER A HALF HOUR, AND THE FEAR WAS GONE. THEY ARE DEF A POWER ANIMAL FOR ME..THEY ARE REBORN AND SHED SKIN CONSTANTLY – THEY REPRESENT NO END OR BEGINNING. I DIG. THESE TWO THEMES/SYMBOLS ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO THE CONTENTS OF THIS SONG)
i hope you understand me
if you don’t, hit me up, we can discuss thee
theories and queries i enter,
i don’t know much, but i venture
to prove myself wrong to keep rewriting my songs,
to unattach and play gongs
to never worry bout right or wrong
and instead create a space, where everyone can create,
not assimilate
let each voice be heard without hate,
at any rate, i will translate
r u down
so see u there round 8
word
its a date (muah)
but don’t be late
cause
this world has got us by balls,
none of the riddles been solved
like what is this all for
some are concerned about the fall
some are convinced there is a wall
that we all gon crawl
that we can’t overcome, forgetting we’re are all one

THESE LAST LINES RELATE TO SIMILAR IDEAS….I RECOGNIZE THAT MAYBE SOME OF WHAT I SAY OR HOW I SAY THINGS CAN BE MISUNDERSTOOD AND I AM OPEN TO DISCUSSION, VARYING POINTS OF VIEW AND ALSO TO PROVE MYSELF WRONG.  I RESPECT OTHERS AND THEIR BELIEFS VERY MUCH AND TRULY BELIEVE, WHATEVER WORKS FOR U IS GREAT. BUT,  I RECENTLY READ THE FIFTH AGREEMENT AND HAVE A NEW FOUND INTEREST IN DOUBT NOT OF MYSELF OR OTHERS BUT OF WHAT I THINK I KNOW TO BE TRUE…..IN NOT ALLOWING MYSELF TO EVER GET TOO ATTACHED TO ANYTHING, TO BE OPEN TO ALL THINGS.  I ALWAYS CONSIDERED MYSELF AS SUCH BUT, I REALLY WASN’T TOTALLY.  I THINK THIS IS THE KEY TO ACTUALLY EVOLVING OURSELVES TO A MORE TOLERANT, JUST AND PEACEFUL WORLD.  AFTER ALL, VARYING OPINIONS, RELIGIOUS BELIEFS ETC (AND OF COURSE MONEY – WHICH IS TOTALLY TIED TO THESE THINGS), IS THE REASON FOR SO MUCH UNNECESSARY DEATH OF HUMANS, ANIMALS AND THE ECOSYSTEM OF THIS PLANET.  BUT YET, WE ARE ALL LIVING UNDER ONE ROOF AT THIS POINT. VARYING OPINIONS SHOULD BE WELCOMED AS NO ACTION DOES NOT HAVE AN IMMEDIATE REACTION AND WE NEED TO START TAKING REAL RESPONSIBILITY FOR THIS AND HEARING ALL SIDES AS WELL AS THE INTUITION OF ALL.)
have you hear about the propaganda
manipulate and shape your branda
that little voice inside, your understanda

(RELATED TO TAKING RESPONSIBILITY, IS HAVING AWARENESS OF WHAT IS GOING ON AROUND US.  I THINK NOT RECOGNIZING THE POWER OF DOUBT, AND NOT BEING FIXED IN ONE WAY OF BEING, ONE BELIEF SYSTEM, IT IS EASY FOR YOU TO NOT BE MANIPULATED BY MEDIA, ADVERTISING, ETC, FROM INSIDE AND OUTSIDE OF YOUR COMMUNITY FOR GOOD AND BAD.)
but u can see me steady grindin
carpricornian climbin,

(OBVI I AM INTO ASTROLOGY – IT IS A BEAUTIFUL SCIENCE IF YOU CAN GET BEYOND THE SILLY HOROSCOPES THAT TRY TO PIGEONHOLE PEOPLE INTO ONE OF 12 SIGNS…THE COMPLEXITY IS SO MUCH DEEPER…IT TAKES DECADES TO LEARN THE SCIENCE PROPERLY AND MOST PEOPLE DON’T EVEN UNDERSTAND IT IS ABOUT A PERSON’S WHOLE CHART, AND THE ACTUAL PLANETS AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT, AND THEREFORE THEY DISMISS THIS INCREDIBLE TOOL THAT EVERY OTHER SCIENCE WAS BASED UPON!
dutty winnin,
while they minin’
n blowing up mountains, poisenin fountains
i hear so many sayin they don’t wanna count us!
so fuck eugenics programs
and the frequency of slow jams
i am not a daughter of sam
i have got a new plan
follow light and hold hands

(SO THIS IS JUST ME POINTING TO SOME SPECIFIC ISSUES THAT PISS ME OFF IN RELATIONSHIP TO THE AWARENESS, AND ISSUES THAT I CONSIDER MYSELF AN ACTIVIST FOR…THE GENERAL ISSUES ARE EQUALITY AND PROTECTING THE ENVIRONMENT AND FURTHER MORE, ENVIRONMENTAL INJUSTICE.  I HAVE READ ABOUT EUGENICS AND SEE THIS SORT OF THING IN PRACTICE IN SO MANY SUBTLE UNSAID FORMS – WHERE PEOPLE OF COLOR ARE MARGINALIZED AND SEEN AS LESS THAN ON SO MANY LEVELS AND THE DEEP ECONOMIC INJUSTICES THAT ARE ASSOCIATED MAKE ME REALLY SAD.  AND, IT MAKES ME NUTS THAT THE SAME SORT OF FORCES BEHIND THIS ARE DOING SIMILAR THINGS TO THE PLANET, SEEING IT AS DISPOSABLE, UNIMPORTANT, AND SOMETHING THAT MONEY CAN BE MADE OFF OF.  WE MUST PROTECT ALL PEOPLE AND OUR PLANET. I BELIEVE WE ARE ENTERING A STAGE WHERE THIS WILL HAPPEN BECAUSE WE ARE SO VERY FAR ON THE OTHER END OF THE SPECTRUM AND A CRITICAL MASS IS BECOMING AWARE OF THIS IMBALANCE…EVERYONE SEES THE INJUSTICE NOW BECAUSE OF OUR TELEPATHY AKA, THE INTERNET. AND I PRAY THAT ALL IT TAKES, IS MANY MINDS FOCUSING ON REVOLUTION, RESOLUTION, AND EVOLUTION.)

we are not the poisen, its about the choosin,
meanwhile
we could be using
everybody got a gift, you can lift up your fam, feel a shift,
choose the joy not the pain, we ain’t crazy or insane
we been playing out a game, not knowin in our name
is mathmatical equa-tion
the time has begun, to no longer run, to seek out our fun
to honor our dark to enter your light, there is nothing out there, it is all our own fright.
cause the experiment is affected by the observer

SO IN ORDER FOR A SHIFT TO HAPPEN, WE HAVE TO ACTUALLY SEE OURSELVES AS POWERFUL, OR LIKE I SAID ABOVE, IN CONTROL OF WHO AND WHAT WE ARE/DO.  AGAIN, I THINK THE POWER THAT IS UNDERLYING MY BIG CONCERNS MENTIONED ABOVE IS THE ANCIENT WISDOM THAT INDIGENOUS PEOPLE HAVE TAUGHT AND HAS BECOME MAINSTREAM NOW…THAT WE REALLY HAVE THE POWER, THE MAGIC POWER TO CHANGE ALL THE BS.  ITS MATH, TRULY, THE WISDOM IS HERE.  WE ARE ALL SO IMPORTANT TO THE PUZZLE, AND SO POWERFUL, WE JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE THIS.)
I got a new dream I upload it on my server
You want to buy me out and I say how about a merger
Together we have fervor, then we will get further

(BUT WE HAVE TO DO IT TOGETHER – NOT IN A VACUUM – IN COMMUNITY).
What you see is what you get and I ain’t done yet.
As soon as I fret i’m thankful I ain’t dead
You could say my attitude, is that of gratitude
And you start acting rude and I say chill dude

(THIS LAST PART IS ALL FROM START NONE. – WHICH BASICALLY IS ALL ABOUT THE THEORY THAT HAS BEEN LOST AND IS SIMILAR TO WHAT I DISCUSS IN BEGINNING…IF U DON’T START THE BULLSHIT…IT WON’T HAPPEN.  FIRST STEP, RESPECT, LOVE AND GIVE TO THE PEOPLE RIGHT AROUND YOU, DON’T SETTLE FOR LESS AND BE SO VERY GRATEFUL FOR THE LIFE AND THE THINGS YOU DO HAVE, INSTEAD OF WHINING ABOUT WHAT YOU DON’T – WHATEVER YOU FOCUS ON TRULY DOES SEEM TO EXPAND.  EVERYTHING BELOW THIS IS REITERATIONS OF PREVIOUS IDEAS.)

You could start it you could end
Forgetting what you said
Created in your head, your enemy and friend
Belated in my send I evolutionize the dead
Open brains instead of puppets on a thread

From aliens I bled they operated on my head
Defeatin all the dread I got you outta bed
Many barely fed and our hands are red
Bleeding for the cred, fallin with no tread
If you don’t start none, then there won’t be none
When you make your hell then you cannot run
It’s like a secret, seems to have been kept from
The average person, forgot we’re all one

Give and let live
Grow and let flow
Be and set free
Know and let go

Give and let live
Grow and let go
Be and set free
dont’ Know but let flow

Give and let live
Grow and let go
Be and set free
don’t Know but let it flow

Iyayaya
yeah
oh iyayayay
yeah
Oh Iyayayah
yeah
All one but not the same
All one but not the same

Owl Time
Nakturnal
Kellee Maize
2012

THANKS FOR READING!

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What the Bleep Do We Know!? – Suggesting this film!

What the Bleep Do We Know?! is a film that I often reference as having a huge impact on me. I saw it soon after my father passed away and I was at one of my most vulnerable times in my life. I was pissed, regretful, sad, and a host of other negative emotions. But, there was this small spark in me that at the same time this was all happening. I had a lot of hope.  I was thinking, okay, my dad would want me to recognize how precious life is and do what I most want to do, to follow my dreams…once and for all.  This ignited a passion in me that many can relate to when you loose someone close to you.  I had this memory come back around that time of when I was about 7 years old. I was sitting in the back seat with my dad driving and my best friend beside me. I was singing along with the song playing on the radio. My best friend said something like, “I can’t hear the song, I only hear you, stop”.   And my dad said, “but she has to practice”.    I realized there was no better time to do what I wanted, to start a music career and my own events and marketing business.

My mother had been working in a factory and had almost died once herself from cancer, which was rather tramatic. After dad died, I got the sense that I had to be able to help her if she needed it, so making more money was also an incentive. I did believe if you did what you loved, you would be abundant. I started listening to a bunch of Wayne Dyer cd’s and his words started to make more and more sense.  I always believed in the things he talked about, but now it felt more like fact than belief.  Although, my logical side always told me I had to prove it.  My favorite quote from his is above. :)

So, I was lost but, felt like at any moment I could be found.  What the Bleep Do We Know, seemed to be the beginning of a new search to prove these things.  Astrology in my teens began the first search and various books carried me along after that, but after he was gone there was nothing more important to me at that time than understanding why we are here and how to make the kind of impact I wanted to make.  Little did I know the change truly starts with the “man in the mirror” like MJ said.

The movie was released in 2004 and had been out for a while when I saw it. It discusses the spiritual connection between quantum physics and consciousness. The film merged documentary-style interviews, computer graphics, and narrative to illustrate the idea that individual and group consciousness can influence the material world, something I inherently felt was true.

Some key things the film insisted was that the universe is best seen as constructed from thought, “empty space” is not empty and matter is not solid.   It suggested there was more than meets the eye or as I say in my song and you have heard somewhere before, “the experiment is affected by the observer”.   A quote that has always stuck with me from this movie, is that it used to be said, when someone asked a scientist if he or she believed in god, they would say, “of course not, I am a scientist”.  A scientist on the film says that now many say, when asked the same question, “of course I do, I am a scientist.” The film was relatively low-budget, but through viral marketing it made $10 million and won many independent film awards. But, I suspect this success was due to the way it was presented, it just makes a lot of sense, to me anyway. And, although it might seem super challenging to apply to your life, over the years I tend to still finding it’s theories to be true.  But, we did once think the earth was flat.  Like the “Fifth Agreement” says, I will doubt and always be open to a new way to view things.

So, I just thought I would share more about it. Writing this has made me realize I want to watch it again. I find with any principle or theory you find to be true that requires an alteration of how you think, be, or act, requires a somewhat consistent reminder process to keep you mindful and not trapped in our domesticated brain patterns. I know it may not be for everyone and it has its criticism but, if it works for some people, or for me, it is worth sharing.  I highly suggest you watch it and decide for yourself.  I would love to hear what you think!

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Peaceburgh March 2012 Events!

Have you have heard about Peaceburgh yet? Nakyouout.com wrote about the New Years event we did.  It was a huge success and I am so excited about all the young people that are involved.

For a long time I  have been part of these somewhat political, spiritually focused groups that are all about studying consciousness, enlightening practices, indigenous prophecy/wisdom/ceremony, yoga, sound healing, activism and so much more.  All of these gatherings and events really have something for everyone, but it seemed like I was always one of only a few young people consistently there.

Suddenly, like I had always dreamed, it has exploded and there is a large force of 18-30 year olds behind everything now, many of whom have been at it well before I was aware of them – a small group of the amazing folks in the pic to the right for example.  We call it the “Young Tribe” for fun and the community at large has several events coming up.  I wrote about this before the event on Nakyoutout.com in our Iron City Sound Ambassador picks for February.   The event is over but, it was incredible.  I  ended up singing/rapping impromtu with about 20 drummers…it was rad!

If you missed the artist showcase, be sure to attend the Peaceburgh Spring Social which will be held on Sunday afternoon March 25, 2012 at Le Brew House Restaurant & Tarverne on 2512 E. Carson Street South Side. $5 entry gives you full access to all lectures, vendors, activities & a shot of wheatgrass juice! There is an extra healthy buffet plus full cash bar including adult beverages as well as vegetable juices & fruit smoothies. Lectures start at 1pm with, What is Peaceburgh? by Sven Hosford, Nobody Wears Orange by Tamar George at 2pm (color therapy), 3pm AGH Integrated Medicine by Dr. Betsy Blazek-O’neill, & The Exquisite Zodiac by Rick Diclemente at 4pm.  Rick is my astrologer and his book will be for sale at the event! So excited!   Starting at 6pm there will be musical performances by Lisa Ferraro, Phil Osophical, & more. Plus YOU in a drum & music circle. Bring your instruments or your hands or your voice or just a willingness to listen!  I will be speaking again as I did at the artist showcase about the Transformation Alliance Peaceburgh (T.A.P) with my mentor Vikki Hanchin, who inspired an international buzz regarding the links Pittsburgh has with the Mayan Prophecy! I HOPE TO SEE YINZ THERE!

Much love!

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Owl Time! – Enter the Owl Tribe (Fan Community)

So, several of my fans have asked how to be Owls or be in a “fan club”, and they want to show support in that way.  I am taking this a step further.  I consider you part of my Tribe or family.  If it were not for you, I would NOT record and distribute my music.

I am sourced by your love and appreciation of the music/message and it means more than any of you could know. Your letters, tweets, emails, etc. keep me going.  Some fans started a site for the Owl Tribe that is under construction and will be released soon to create a community.  But, I don’t want to wait to begin to unify and have a better way to connect with you than on Facebook and Twitter.   So, below you will find a place to put your email address so that you will be informed when they launch the site and also get exclusive goodies. Whoody Whoo!!! (S/O to Outkast)!

Fill out my online form.

You may be wondering where the idea of Owls, Owl time, Nakturnal, etc. came from. Well, my marketing and events company is called Nakturnal, so there is that obvious relationship as me and my girls have been trying to “Create an Awakening” since 2005 at Nak.  And, no, its not based on some illuminati stuff or only for women.  (Its kinda funny when folks think I am part of the “illuminati”, my guess is they aren’t listening/reading the lyrics, assume I’m a rich white mans daughter, or aren’t don’t know my history. But no hard feelings at all, I am a bit of a conspiracy theorist myself and can see where this assumption comes from. :)

Also, I have a soul brother known as Octeel who does all sorts of a amazing artwork for me and specializes in owl drawings like the first one on this post.  He will be creating some special Owls for us in the future. :)   Check out his sick neck tat of an owl! He is a tattoo artist so if u r in pgh, visit him at Drawing Room.  See him do my wrist tat to the right in this video.

“Buho Tiempo!” – Ac Tah

But, most importantly, the owl for me is all about the medicine of the owl.  All animals have special messages or “medicine” for us to learn from. If there is a particular animal(s) you love for example, it is likely if you researched the indigenous meanings given to that animal or derived from that animal, you will find it is a “power animal” for you.

Well, the owl has always been one of my power animals and I think is a great image for the community I’m a part of, aka you.  ”Owl medicine is a feminine trait (within men and women!) and is symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection, and magic. Since time immemorial, humanity has been afraid of the night, the dark, and the unseen – waiting fearfully for the first crack of morning light. Conversely, night is Owl’s friend. It has great awareness of all that is around it at all times. It has predator vision, which means it sees clearly what it looks at (to see the truth, through the BS! Owls are wise because of this). It has great intuition, and the courage to follow its instincts.”- Birdclan.org.  DO u DiiiiiiGGGG?!? :) S/O to Spector Studio’s for making custom owl masks for Nakturnal that we wore in the pic above for an upcoming video in these two pics!

And as far as the Tribe, in Owl Tribe, well, like I said, without you I am nothing.  In Peaceburgh (aka Pittsburgh :) ) this term has been growing.  In a tribe, every person plays a role and is important. This is how I see everyone – no matter what you think about yourself.  I struggled so much trying to figure out my purpose, to believe in myself and I felt like I was lost at times and have to remind myself even now of who I am.  When you clear the mental chatter and realize those voices inside are not you, or that divine awesome being that you really are, it is easy to see that EVERY person has incredible, inherent and precious value.  I am not some leader of some group or club, we are a tribe, all equal – all one.  And by oneness, I don’t mean sameness – we are all different in the most beautiful ways.

As an OWL you will hear about it first and get the opportunities first for things related to merch, shows, tickets and more.  I will send you lyrics, songs, etc. in advance for feedback if you wish and I plan to always give Owls my music free.  All I really need in return is continued support.  If you can pass on my stuff to your friends through your Twitters, Facebooks, etc – that is rad.  You guys are so awesome and most of you do this already. AGAIN – undying gratitude! :)  Most of all, I want to let this be a place where you can find support for the amazing art, projects and ideas you may have that would be of interest to other like-minded Owls.

I can’t wait to have all of the OWLs to flock together and get this Nakturnal movement making history.   It’s OWL time!

Word to the Mothership.
I LOVE U!

Specific Owl Tribe Benefits from me (I hope to add more from other Owls :) ):

  • First dibs on Merch, made by me and my super creative Owl friends
  • Secret updates about current songs
  • Ability to vote on version of new songs, lyrical content
  • Backstage access to shows
  • Special presale ticket options
  • Free versions of songs that may only be available for sale
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    Who am I again? – Reminding myself how to create who I want to be.

    Today we had a gathering with a group of women I have been meeting with for the last 5 years.  I often think of them as my circle of mothers.  We sit in a circle and share our deepest and darkest as well as our inspiring and highest self.  We often have group intentions that can involve one member of the group or a social, environmental, or spiritual issue that has come up and is affecting our community or the planet. It is a gathering that is spiritual in nature, involves ceremony and meditation, but is very real and tangible at the same time.  I feel the power of our group is immense and that we are doing work together that we don’t even realize!

    It has brought me an unbelievable amount of comfort and support and inspired my music SO much.   I highly suggest this for men and women, to gather and share.  A great way to start and understand this further is to read the millionth circle guidelines to understand the nature of this sort of thing if you haven’t tried it before.   There is a very cool hypothesis regarding doing circles like this which is also above via the Hundredth Monkey theory – “When a critical number of people change how they think and behave, a new era will begin” – sort of like a tipping point to an era of authenticity, peace, and cooperation would be my goal for participating in these, in addition to personal growth.

    Today we talked about one situation in particular that someone is having with their son and one of the other women suggested that she ask her son how he wants to be “listened to”.  Now, this may sound a little foreign if you haven’t done landmark, but it is an idea that arose from indigenous practice and also can be found in tons of different spiritual, self help, and psychological teachings.  It came from the idea of really “remembering who you are”  or finding your divinity.  Kymatica talks a lot about this lost off divinity. The idea is sort of simple though in terms of application…it is that you ask others to listen to you as your highest self, or as they say in landmark as your “possibility”, or more simply, as the person you want to be (who in fact you already are!).

    I asked that the whole group decide how they want to be listened to and we all went around and did this.  Even in an incredibly unconditionally loving group, our perception certainly colors how we see one another, especially when you are sharing your most vulnerable and sometimes dark moments.  Although I think we have an incredible level of respect for and think so very highly of one another, perhaps we see each other as these “downfalls”, or as our “lower selves” at times.  This can happen with everyone….family, friends, etc.  How many times do you think you “know” how someone is or expect them to act in a way that might not be serving them or you.  This really gives very little room for them or you to grow.  It is not intentional of course, it is simply a mechanism of evolutionary survival…but now is the time that we are becoming aware of these things so that we can evolve to the next step and make a choice as opposed to letting our conditioning or domestication decide for us. Even though it is all about how we percieve things in our own mind, when someone around you creates a space for you to be great, magic really can happen..even when you don’t feel so great.

    So, I wanted to share this simple idea and how you could apply it and I will use me as an example.  With my cousin being here, and being much younger than I, I have felt a struggle between being mothering and being a friend/confidant for her.  So, I have been quite stressed, scared, worried and overwhelmed this last week since her arrival to live with me (see here for more). Of course I am happy, excited and grateful at the same time that she is here!  But, these sort of bi-polar feelings are a sudden and extreme shift from the what has been more consistant tranformative, empowered, and inspired feelings.  It has also brought up all sorts of issues both good and bad, that I remember from being her age.

    While my situation has inspired my work as an artist, it feels a bit scattered/confusing and it has interrupted my new years intentions to get really focused on my spirituality, body work and production of new music right now.  So, I asked everyone to see me as a “focused, constant and inspired music maker and friend”. (Making music involves spiritual and body work so, that is kinda encompassed in this statement – less is more, helps to remember!)

    This would allow me to be the best I can for my cousin, and the best I can for me and my purpose.  So the idea is that everyone in the group agrees to see me in this way, when they are listening to me, when they think of me, etc.  And, when they see me not BEING this way, they are to remind me of what I created and how they are committed to seeing me, or listening to me as this.  (See by mention of BEING in the sex article, this can help you get what I mean by being.)  This is somewhat similar to theories about the law of attraction as well but I think easier than trying to “control thoughts”.  I find the thoughts start changing when you start focusing on how you want to be.

    We use this idea in my business, (Nakturnal), a lot after we all did the Landmark Forum and I think it has profound effects.  It is a little new for us and it certainly takes practice but, I have seen it work like magic!

    So, perhaps you can ask the people you love to see you the way you want to be seen or to listen to you as that.  Ask them to envision that you ARE that, being that way, all the time.  Remind them often. It is a gift I imagine many people would like to give you.  Of course we are still human and may go back to old perceptions when our “mental advisors” play tricks, but then you just have to remind them again of what they agreed to. :)  And, to be fair and karmic about it, ask them how they want to be listened to so that a give and take can add a level of accountability and fun to the whole process.

    I hope I don’t sound “preachy” in my posts, :) I just want to offer ideas.  End of day, what works for you, works for you, and I love the idea that this might assist you….just like I was told these things and found peace and joy by applying them.

    I already feel so much better about my situation and actually wrote a whole song during our gathering!  Proof! ;)

    LOVE AND PEACE TO YOU Always!~

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    A form of health insurance – How massage keeps me well!

    See bottom of post regarding my delay in writing for the last week. :)

    I don’t know about you, but I don’t really go to the doctor very often. Basically, I tend to agree more with the eastern philosophy of treating a whole person, not just a symptom with a pill.  There are a lot of great wholistic doctors in the area and I am sure no doctor is the same but, very few of the types I am aware of are covered by my insurance.  (But I give thanks for insurance, so many don’t have and it breaks my heart!)

    Given my views about medicine, I tend to think of massage as a sort of health insurance in and of itself (in conjunction with eating well and yoga).  I know my body stores toxins and stress and massage has been essential for my wellbeing.  Fortunately one of my best friends Roxanne, (pictured on the far right of this pic with me and Kaaren), used me as a ginnea pig for years when she was learning the art of massage therapy.  So I got a TON of great massage on trade or for very little cash.  Now Roxanne works at Verve Wellness so I get to keep the tradition going and I try to see her at least 1x per month.   Read more about Verve below.

    What inspired this article was a great new massage center in the Shadyside/Friendship area of Pittsburgh.  The owner sent me an email and offered a massage to see what I thought.  Well, I was VERY impressed.

    LaVida Massage shares my vision and promotes a healthier mind, body, and life through massage.  I had an amazing 1 hour massage and I floated out of the room. They offer at least 10 different types including deep tissue, hot stone, and aromatherapy. They use essential oils during their aromatherapy massages, like eucalyptus, peppermint, lavender, and rosemary. Each scent stimulates different emotions and you can just stop by to grab some for use at home as they sell them by the bottle!  I just love playing with oils and wearing them. LaVida also has staff who specialize in trigger point therapy, which breaks cycles of spasms and pain if you have serious issues. Another thing that LaVida offers that I have heard is great is Colonic Hydrothearapy, which is a safe way to clear out unneeded toxins. I am so curious about this, and a little frightened, lol.  I plan to try it and report back in the future. :)  LaVida is located at 5430 Centre Ave in Pittsburgh and are open 7 days a week. You can book online and I was told to ask about new client discounts!

    Verve Wellness is my tried and true venue for total wellness right downtown.  If you work downtown, you have GOT to stop by.  I have written about them several times and will continue as I have new experiences.  They really do it all there and I can’t suggest Roxanne enough to get your next massage!  She has made my LIFE.  She works on professional altheletes too so that sentiment I have heard before that a woman may not be strong enough for a male massage is NOT true (women can do anything, duh ;) )!  I have also heard amazing things about the massage therapist/owner Aubrey who I hope to try sometime soon. I also just found out they do Thai massage. Word! I did this once in LA and it was so interesting and helped with flexibility, which I need.   Verve also does nails, hair, yoga and pilates, lipolaser consultation, facials, acupuncture and more!  All you need to know to experience Verve 360 is below. :)

    Your health is worth the investment.  Might I suggest cooking at home more often, not shopping, giving up a habit that costs money, or having a few less drinks when you are out if it means getting a massage this month. It is so so so worth it!

    142 Sixth Street, 3rd Floor
    Pittsburgh, PA 15222
    P: 412-471-1575, F:412-471-1574
    info@theverve360.com

    *So, I totally said I would write 4x’s a week and DID NOT do so last week.  And, like I said in my Integrity post, it is important to me to honor my word.  I hope there was no impact for this but, if there was, holla. :) Since you can’t easily ask why, I will say it is a combo of lots of music and Nakturnal news you will hear about soon, my cousin moving in to town suddenly which you can read about here and my maid of honor duties for my girl Roxanne have been heating up this last week. (She is the Massage Therapist I mentioned above and I AM SOO EXCITED FOR HER WEDDING!)  But, I promise to get back on track in the next week! :)

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    Family time – Helping My lil’ cousin transition to Peaceburgh

    I have so many posts that are almost done but life just threw me a precious little curveball.  So, I will get to those later and talk about my exciting news instead.

    My younger cousin Marissa, who I think of as a little sister and just love to death had to move, quickly, into my house due to some rather grim circumstances.  She has never lived in a bigger city so far from her mom and friends.  This is a new experience for her and a huge and sudden transition so I am spending a lot of time helping her acclimate.

    So, I have nearly 6 roommates now (8 if you count the cats), lol, and we are about to start a maid business for her, find a family with kids to nanny for and see about an apartment sometime soon.  This all needs to happen asap so my week has gotten a bit reorganized.  I am so very excited to have her here, help her meet new people and finally have some family in Pittsburgh!  I have been here for 14 years and this is the first time I have had anyone from my fam in my hood!  Although, I created a ton of “family” right here in Peaceburgh. :)

    I also have some new videos and music cooking at the moment that I am excited about. They are being fueled by these life changes right now!   So, I need to be brief at moment, but I have a lot of juicy new stuff I am writing about and will hopefully post later this week.  If anyone out there in Pittsburgh is reading and has an apt avail in the future, any odd jobs, or is in need of a maid or nanny,  I have a beautiful young girl ready to get her work on. :)

    Here is to family!

    Love and light!

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    BURGHEOISIE – My love of local handmade goods

    When I was downtown for a meeting, I happened upon this super cute store called Burgheoisie.  As I looked around I saw a purse that I knew had to be by my friend Suz.  She is responsible for the terrible towel skirt and football purse you see in my Pittsburgh archetype here!

    Suz rocks.  Her designs and purses are amazing and she an incredible seamstress.  She also teaches at the fashion program at Art Insitute in Pgh and I got to work with her when I was chosen as a featured artists for a camp they did for recent highschool grads.

    I have a great deal of love for local designers and anything handmade.  In fact all of the pics you see on my site by Laura Petrilla were designed locally. Check um out here.  One of my favorite events in Pgh is called Handmade Archade which is almost like a festival of hundreds of DIY crafters.

    So, I just had to show some love to the people at Burgheoisie. The store is a collective boutique for clothes, accessories, and art by Pittsburgh artists and it is right dowtown. Their goal is “to share the value and impact of goods created by local neighbors”. They also offer crafts workshops in their boutique. Burgheoisie is a part of the Project Popup: Downtown program, which was a contest sponsored the Department of City Planning, the mayor, Pittsburgh Downtown Partnership and more. Popup gives the winners the chance to occupy vacant stores downtown.

    Visit them if you are a Peaceburgher and appreciate and support local art. :)

    They are at 208 Sixth St.

    Here are their hours: Wed: 11a-2p & 4-9p | Thu/Fri: 11a-2p & 4-8p | Sat: 11a-8p | Sun: 11a-5p

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    Inhaling Heart – How I learned to calm myself with heart breathing

    It was probably about 2 years ago that I was dealing with some strong anxiety. It wasn’t nearly as bad as it had been years before, but with all the spiritual and medative work I was doing, I found it troubling that I couldn’t seem to shake some of this mid belly anxiety.  I talk about being assisted by some beings from another place in my Alien Encounter post to release some of this pent up stuff. (Shout out to Shannon Carter who created this Kellee heart :) )

    But, in addition to that, I was told by my mentor that I should “breath through my heart”.  She said she discovered it and thought it was very helpful.  She is also a licensed psychologist and a spiritual guru in my eyes, so I taker her advice very seriously  She also told me about HeartMath…an amazing organization that studies the power of the heart.  Fact is, the heart generates 40 to 60 times more electrical amplitude than the brain.  So, you can understand why thoughts, and all that BS going on up there by your “mental advisors”, as my friends Chad and Kevin call them, are not nearly as powerful as your heart, physiologically speaking.  So, after testing her advice I feel breathing with your heart, and focusing intention there, is incredibly powerful for health and well-being.  And, this is why HeartMath exists.

    So, breathing with your heart…how do you do that?  Well, it is rather simple really.  And, to this day, when I feel a sense of stress, tightness or anxiety anywhere in my body or from certain thoughts, I do this.

    Basically, I envision that my heart is actually open, like a mouth, or like it might be in an open heart surgery, minus the blood and knives.  I am sure this visualization of opening is actually helpful in and of itself.  So, I think of it like my heart is actually breathing, that the air is coming in and out of my chest.  Occasionally I might put a color to the breath, or if there is something bothering me I imagine healing love coming in, and healing love going out towards the issue.  Sometimes I do this with other body parts if the tightness is really extreme in a certain part of my midsection or even a pain somewhere.  You often hear in Yoga class and such to “breath into an area”.  This is because it seems to have a benefit in stretching the area as well.

    I know the deep breathing is also helpful in and of itself too and I imagine that plays a role.  One of my friends who is trying to quit smoking said she should do deep breathing exercises as she has read that the deep breathing that happens when you smoke cig’s is actually part of the addiction, as we often restrain, hold or shorten our breath throughout the day when stressed.  I used to smoke cigarettes like a maniac and I think there is definite truth to this. I felt a decrease in anxiety when I lit up, although I imagine some of it is of course chemical.  I did quit because my mom got lung cancer, almost died and went through unreal radiation and chemo treatments.  I could no longer justify my habit.  Not to mention I learned more about the tobacco industry and the chemicals.

    Nonetheless, one big belly breath can have a huge impact on how you feel.  One time I did a breathing workshop where I learned how much I was NOT breathing with my belly.  I was a gymnast and have a large arch in my back that makes my belly stick out.  I was always told to suck it in when I was a young gymnast.  Then as I got insecure and learned people called me “pott belly” in highschool, I started sucking in even more. It was possible all the time however, lol.  I have been less hard on myself although I find it an instant reaction when my ego steps in and I want to “look pretty”.  I still have to remind myself to breath deeply sometimes.  In another post I will tell the story of this amazing breathing workshop and what came out of it.

    If you happen to try this method, of breathing with your heart, I would love to hear if it is helpful to you also.

    Much love and deep, fulfilling, cleansing breaths to u!

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